She sounded good today
vibrant in spirit
not like last time when she was weak
Sometimes you don’t think that she’s going to
get any better
You called her from work
because you had so many things to do and
places to go after just like
every damn day
so you wanted to make sure that at least
you made the effort.
But you’re miles behind on work.
You can’t stay on the phone
for too long you have a meeting and
a list of lists to accomplish.
You just wanted to say high but once you
have her on
she sounds so happy
she’ll talk about everything in her day
-the doctors, the medicine, the treatment, the cats.
You start to feel rushed because you have to go
and she can go on and on about everything.
But what else is she going to do?
Who else can she talk to and how often do you really speak to her?
She just wanted to hear from her son.
She just wanted to fucking talk to you
because for most of her day
she just sits around; is too weak to walk anywhere
and has nobody but dad to talk to when he’s not at work.
So when she says ‘I love you, son.’
you realize that one day
you will have done anything
just to hear her say that
just to hear her voice again
just to have her there
for just a little bit longer.
So when she starts talking about the flowers
or the birds in the yard
you don’t say that you have to go
you don’t rush to goodbye
you don’t hang up.
you find a chair
and you listen.