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A Bright Moment At The End Of A Week From Writing Hell

I have been struggling all week with the first three chapters of a novel I had written 13 years ago, my first born. Not sleeping and trying to do everything in one day didn’t help and I should have left it alone but I’m such a stubborn mule that I just kept at it until the point that I was so miserably frustrated with it that I was about to throw it away. I worked it over four times and at the end I knew that this was not how I wrote these days and it seemed too daunting of a task to take on when I should really be working on a new book like I have been wanting to ever since I started throwing my shit online but this meant something to me when I wrote it. The story had purpose. It was just written terribly. I had given up.

Funny that of all places the mechanics was where I had pulled out the pages and a pen and started cutting into it. I chopped away and moved things around and within an hour I had the three chapters how I wanted them. I had finally cracked this book and am certain of completing it within good time. I just wanted to take this moment to share that and say ‘Fuck yeah!’ It’s on now.

Don’t give up. Don’t kill yourself over a project either. I wish I knew how not to.

Happy Friday.

Link to the synopsis, which is totally getting an overhaul as well. What was I thinking?

https://hernanjmonzon.com/poetry/1365-2/

Never Give Up on your Day

I tried to write today.

Mostly it was just screaming at my laptop
in foreign languages
tearing up pages and pages
of paper
crumpling them up and
throwing them at the television
crying, there was crying
banging on the table
with both fists
in between staring contests
with my cat.

But!
In the end I managed to fix up
a chapter
in less than an hour.

Never give up on your day.