On the shoulders
of the main road
a procession of Mennonites
mournfully advance.
Black after black after
black.
They move along solemnly
like a cluster
of weary crows.
On the shoulders
of the main road
a procession of Mennonites
mournfully advance.
Black after black after
black.
They move along solemnly
like a cluster
of weary crows.
I kick an old flyer
onto the road.
The wind blows it
right back.
Debris has conquered the streets
-trash unleashed from ice like artifacts-
as across the lawns
the mounds of snow
have melted down
to last November.
Some people are such
empty vessels
that it fills me with pain
until I look away.
The man at the end of the table
laughs at a joke
I unintentionally made
as I stick my fork into
something that I cannot pronounce.
Burning bridges
is good practice
in bad thinking.
At times
explaining to people
what manners are
is like trying to discuss
politics
with a vending machine.
Always be kind
to the people that hurt you
because even if they do not
respect you
it will still show that you
will always
respect yourself.
When it comes to matters of the heart
those that have a hard time
letting people in
are those that have
an even harder time
letting people
out.
I have worked with several people
that have spent most of their lives
behind a broad desk
seated in a comfortable leather chair
with an undisputable air of casual ease about them
that most would most certainly consider enviable
as now even deep into their forties
they bear the faces of children
so much that even I standing beside them
look like an old gnarled lizard
that has been lying in the desert sun unmolested
for centuries.
They have faces that have never been
hit, never drowned in tears or spit upon
and because of that small things
seem to confound them as they chatter on
endlessly inside of their snow globes
about their driveways, diets and
personal trainers as they compare watches
and morning routines.
They have never had to worry about
their car not starting on the way to
a job interview that would decide
if they were going to eat
for the next month.
They have never lost a fight
because they have never been in one.
They have never had to steal
condiments from restaurants
or duct tape their shoes
never had to bang on somebody’s door
with a bat for mishandling their ex
or muscle their way into a room
full of strangers to settle a score.
They have never had to be animals
not like us.
I used to think that they were lucky
oh, so lucky to not have to endure
life’s harsher climates
but now as I see them standing
lost at the photocopier
face painted with unusual concern
not knowing what to do
because nothing’s coming out
I just think that they’re pathetic
and for good reason.
In this city of the lonely
the dying
the hard-asses and hard of luck
it doesn’t matter to you
what I’ve seen
been through
cared about or my troubles
while doing so.
It doesn’t matter at all.
Why should it?
I don’t know you
and you rarely ever
know me so we’ve always
managed to get by with a
certain air of indifference
like the people you may know at work
at school in the hallways
on the streets
that you sometimes warm to or
mostly simply tolerate
throughout the daily course of
human traffic.
I have always felt that
something is missing
that something should be different so
I’m going to hand you my heart
without fear of what it would look
like to you.
I’m going to tell you things that
I haven’t told anyone.
I’m not going to lie or pretend
because I was never really good at that
to begin with.
I am just going to take this moment
to talk to you
just as though you were sitting here
in front of me
as that seems like a good start.
Would that be okay?
Great, here
pull up a chair.
Let us begin.